|now hold on to me pretty baby, if you wanna fly
||[Jan. 20th, 2007|01:10 pm]
|||||"le disko" by shiny toy guns||]|
i'm getting old and i hate it. hate hate hate it. my oldest cousin is graduating in 4 months from high school. one of his sisters is babysitting now. i remember when it was ME babysitting THEM!! i'm going to be an aunt any day now. all my friends are engaged or getting married or seriously dating someone (except the cool ones, haha jk).
i just wish i could go back to last year. actually farther back than that, to where life was perfect. but even last year, it was fun (besides all the family drama which seriously sucked). i was in school, and i was working. yes i still had time to have fun. i went out at least once a week. i had a lot of fun friends i hung out with all the time. there was always something to do. my best friends were only a flight of stairs away.
fast forward to this year. a lot of people have moved away, either on w/their lives or back home. everyone else lives farther away than before. no one EVER wants to go out. no one EVER wants to have fun. i'm not saying pete is a bad roomie, but i miss being able to wander into buzz's room and lay on her bed while we watched stupid videos online and talked about dumb things.
i'm growing up i guess. but somehow everyone's lives are moving forward but i feel like i'm stuck in neutral. i dunno. thats just how i feel. i just miss my friends. blah.
anyways, i'm off. love you guys.